There is only the illusion of two...

This evening marks the end of a program to "call in the one". Seven weeks with 3 other very important friends, once each week for a dinner conference call to get in touch with how we are not showing up as the possibility of our most fulfilling partnership. 

Katherine Woodward's powerful program has revealed so much of what is written in this paper cut pictured below.  This is actually a Christmas gift for the very person who was the inspiration for this blog. There are no coincidences that this part of a love poem I chose to use for her gift is exactly what I got from the whole program, not just any random love stanza. Calling in the one is calling to myself...choosing to love myself wholely and compassionately is the only way I will attract the person who I desire. Even more than this is that, since we are all one source it makes sense loving myself will serve to love another. I accept love for my self and for you beloved! We ladies are soooo laughing!!!!

Todays affirmation:)

The heart of the universe manifests itself through one collective gleaming consciousness....that includes each one of us!!!!

Invitation: You blog follower you!

Have you contemplated dedicating yourself to yourself ever? Laura and I have taken the plunge for 333 days...

I'm not quite sure where the next 300+ days will be taking me but you can us on our adventure via our blog...shoot, who knows, we might have something exciting to read...oops, I'm hearing that song coming through....I feel the earth move under my feet.

332 to go...

If the first day is a sign of the next 332 days....oh lord I can't even imagine!

Out of the apt by 7:15am on a Saturday with two sleeping boys and a promise for a stop for the finest sugary morning confection. The bait and switch instigated a couple of groans but their growling bellies didn't seem to mind.

8am on the dot...acupuncture. It's been many months since my last treatment...I skip from one legendary chinese practitioner to the next. This time was extremely poignant that afforded me the clarity I've been seeking for so long...well really my entire adult life. How could in just one day I have the keys to unlock the mystery of my angst. Could it be that now that I know the cause I can finally rest and be at peace with just all that I have created thus far...the mess as well as the jewels?

I think so....if it's only taken me 39 years to unravel the dysfunctional entanglement or should I say enstranglement of my thought constructs I think I have hit the jackpot! I'm now wondering is what if just the committment to honor myself, my practice, my family life and structurizing my day to day for the next 332 days is all it took for me to end my relentless search. I think it's time to start my first book...hahhaa! That was on my ex-husband's bucket not mine, but hey I've got a lotta good juicy stories to tell. And I've just begun, almost a whole year to go.

I really don't think that anyone will take the time out of their life to read about some silly yoga teacher nurse recount all of her so-called "coincidences" and buy into her ideologic reasoning that these happenings are really mystical experiences at the cross roads with God or whatever you want to call it.

so, coincidence #1...I wake up and copy an Emerson quote and forward to 2 very special people who I just happen to feel need to hear it. It has to do with happiness. He says that happiness is not what we should seek but to contribute to others happiness and live well! Well, basically.

Ok so whatever does this mean...well, I guess you'd need to know who the heck I sent them to and why. Now it's getting really personal, shall I? Hmmmm. I will leave these innocent bystanders un-named for now. Anyway, the discussion with my acupuncturist just happens to delve into the world of mothering boys. How boys need to feel valued and a sense of worth. It becomes quite a struggle when a strong father figure is absent from their daily life.

"Reveal"ation, ah behold...could this be what I've been yearning for and hence attracted to all these years. My knight? The emotional release stimulated by the placement of many very fine needles in a predetermined pattern for spiritual "whatever" wiped the fog from my lenses. OMG it all makes perfect sense. So after almost 2 hours, tears, waves of tingling currents throughout my body, and wonderment I suddenly able to release the vice around my heart a little more. Don't worry I've still got more work to do here:)

Anyway, I told Yu She about the psychologist, plus three other special people, who practiced Ho'oponopono at the University of HI. What is Ho'oponopono?: (well it just so happens there's this workshop evite that comes over today, well, yesterday)...

A Hawaiian Meditation forHealing & Transformation
Please join Dawn Marie for this guided meditation using Young Living Essential Oils and a Hawaiian spiritual tool for healing and reconciliation, to clean the slate of pain and past grievances and bring fresh new energy into our bodies, our relationships, and our lives. This technique can be applied to anything in your life that you want to change, improve or transform. We will also use Ho'oponopono to send a special blessing to Japan, the Earth and the Waters.

this promise is becoming more promising:) AND THIS IS ONLY PART OF MY DAY...

Pea Soup

Thursday Nite Green Pea Soup

Inspired by Madison, my daughter and Jamie Oliver!

2 potatoes, kinda peeled and diced

1 small onion diced

2 T olive oil

2-3 cloves garlic, minced

1 large bag, organic green peas

3 cups organic vegetable broth or chicken (if not a vegetarian like my daughter insists on being:)

1/2 box of firm organic tofu

2 T butter

2 T dried tarragon or preferably 3 T fresh minced

pepper and salt to taste

crumbled feta for garnish

Hot sauce is always a condiment for a lil pizzazz when desired, which usually is frequent here.

Boil potatoes in salted boiling water until nearly tender. Add peas, cook for two minutes and drain. Leave to steam while you saute' in the oil, onions and garlic in the pan until wilted and glistening but not caramelized. Add the tarragon and cook for a minute to meld flavors.

Transfer potatoes and peas and tofu to mixture and add broth to pot. Simmer about 3 minutes just to harmonize the flavors. Opps, don't forget to add the butter here while its simmering.

Let cool slightly and blend with a stick blender until consistency is desired. Creamier the better for Madison.

Serve with a sprig of fresh tarragon and crumbling of feta! Mmmmm

Sit down in a comfortable seat with about 4 or 5 family and friends

Start with a blessing then enjoy together.

Pairings

Chilled vino: Starborough, Sauvignon Blanc from New Zealand..zeal is something I like to cultivate daily:)

Flat bread of choice, lightly fried in olive oil, salted when still hot!! Yum yum. Try not to eat them all while your cooking.

setting up the foundation for ease and compliance...3 more days

333 IS THE ULTIMATE SPIRITUAL DECISION NUMBER. IT REPRESENTS THE FINAL DIVINE IMPERATIVE.

“CHOOSE THIS DAY WHOM YOU WILL SERVE.”

“NO MAN SERVES TWO MASTERS.”

Got the biggest post it ever...one week per page. Each week I will document the yoga practice, meditation, affirmation, and other tid-bits. Planning for the next week will also begin weekly on the Monday prior. I've added a few personal requirements to complete my experience.

1. no texting while driving...even when the kids aren't in the care

2. sit down for every meal

3. take at least sacred 4 cup baths with blessing the water

4. drink 60 oz of water daily

5. expect miracles daily